Marriage After Deployment
So once again I am amazed how hard this relationship call marriage can be! Chris has been home from Iraq now for about 6 months. A lot has changed. We moved out of my grandma’s old and bought a home of our own. I switched jobs. We had our first Christmas in our house. My sister’s marriage of close to 30 years officially ended by her moving out of her home into mine. Chris just re-enlisted for another 5 years! I know God has a plan for all the chaos that seems to be spinning around me, but its hard to not let it consume my thoughts and start to worry and fret.
Money is a big deal in any marriage, but when you live on a fixed income with the military it can make money and decisions surrounding it very tough. I hate credit cards, but lately its being used more than I would like. They can be necessary for those lovely little things called accidents or in our case recently tires that needed to be replaced pronto. My husband’s souped up Ford F150 has 35 inch tires and boy were they expensive! I about had a heart attack when Chris told me how much it was going to cost to replace all four tires. Lets just put it this way its twice as expensive as compared to replacing all four tires on my midsize Ford SUV. All I can say is thank God for tax returns and as soon as our tax return goes through that credit card is getting paid off!
I love my new job but it is completely at odds with Chris work schedule. I work pretty much part to full time at my new job. There are times when I get off early but I go into work 5 days a week Monday through Friday. I get home somewhere between 8 and 10pm at night. My brain needs some time to shut down and it can be a little hard to go to bed right when I get home. But usually lately Chris is already sound a sleep when I get home. So basically we don’t get anytime together during the week. I find it hard to have a relationship with someone I live with but don’t really get to have conversation with but on the weekends. I find it hard to want to be intimate with Chris at times because I feel completely disconnected from him during the week. I don’t know how long I can take working full time like this! We don’t talk at all sometimes for days at a time. He’s asleep by the time I get home and I am still deep asleep at 4:30am when he gets up for work! I’m not sure how to fix this problem and do not know if it can be fixed. But I guess I can pray and hope something changes with our attitudes and the way I feel about the whole situation.
Green Eyed Girl
